I think Tails is doing me no good

[suddenimpact­]

Sorry for staying out of contact for so long, but I just moved into a new place recently and did not have internet for awhile.

About me coming here, I'm not sure that it's a good idea. I don't have a problem with anyone here don't get me wrong, It's nice having friends with a common interest. Sometimes I just feel like this whole Tails thing is causing too many problems mentally for me, like I can't exist properly with him in my head.

Tails was not an accident either, I actually chose to like him and had a purpose for him, but now he no longer has a purpose. I had already gotten attached before I had the chance to just get rid of him. How I could let something like this get so deep-rooted in my mind is a mystery to me, but now it's taking effect and I don't like it.

I know I'm not the most obsessed person about him, I don't even own any Tails anything. My subconscious is always taking in things about people and processing those things, and in the same way it has taken in an immense amount about Tails and so now there's a lot of info just sitting there in my mind and I keep going back and seeing it because it relates to so many things. I don't know what I should do but I do know that I need to get rid of him eventually...

Well what do you think?

[Marik]

Uhh, I dunno how to respond to that.

Just be a fan, be happy that you see him in a new game or something, no need to go overboard, there really isn't a reason to. I'm usually a fan of sidekicks so I got to like Tails cause he was a cool one, and he was always the best to play as (he freaking flew). I'm also a fan of Cream for mostly the same reasons, she reminds me of Tails back a decade ago.

Of course even though I liked his character, I hated what Sega did with him. Tails gets his own storyline in Adventure? Awesome, wait he races Sonic in mostly the same storyline, not til after 3/4 when he finally branched out. He's the leader in Adventure 2? awesome, wait WTF is that Gamma acting mech. Sonic Heroes, everyone's all buddy buddy. Wasn't til Sonic Advance 1 and 2 where Tails (and Cream in 2) totally took over as the "best character to play as." Tails is in Chronicles? Naturally, wait he's only a buffer? Weak. Cream's a healer? Freaking sweet.


Prob cause he's an underdog that you want to see him become his own self, cause that's the stage that's he's in. Problem is that nothing truly showing that.

That help?

[suddenimpact­]

I'm sorry, I just think a lot about things and I believe that too much thought is wasted on Tails. Maybe I need to find a better place for him than what I have now, I don't ever want to ask "What would Tails do?" then think about it again (although it has reminded me that I should be more positive about things.....I just contradicted myself, maybe he's done me some good). It's difficult sharing similarities with him because it makes me feel unoriginal. That's kind of what I mean by "can't exist properly with him in my head"

Anyway, I'll try "Don't worry, be happy" and see how things go I guess. I could be making some big deal of what could actually be nothing at all right?

Um, other things. I might be getting an internship at Boeing in a year or two if anyone's heard of that. It's an international airplane engineering and manufacturing company. I don't want to get stuck with working in a manufacturing plant though, people get laid off too easy, and besides I would prefer to do the more technical stuff in the aeronautical engineering field.

I was surprised that we actually got an xbox 360 when we did, but I was even more surprised when I bought the Sonic the Hedgehog game for it. I was a little awkward about buying it considering for whatever the reason the price tag was so low (I really didn't care, it looked good but I just never looked into it and so I knew very little about it). I have never played a game with more problems in it, the idea was good but it had so many things missing from it...I bet this was mentioned somewhere on the board huh? Tails role was kind of disappointing and for some reason he was incredibly slower than sonic unlike other games and I don't know who it was that thought of a dummy ring bomb. I never beat it but it does have some cool parts here and there. Sorry for being behind on the games, I think this may be old.

(Making a post this big makes me worry that anywhere I might have said something wrong...)

I've been wondering if Tails is going to stay with me for the rest of my life. I've heard of a lot of people growing out of things like that.

--Nope not Tails, he's special : )

[suddenimpact­]

I don't know why I let Tails so deep into my head but I'm getting rid of him before he gets any deeper. A thing such as that should not even come close to touching my essence or soul so there's something wrong. It was never supposed to be more than an image, I shouldn't even be here. All the machines have stopped working because I came here. Personality conflicts in me are too much.Tails is not the problem, however my involvement with him is. I've watched and now believe I have no relative way to describe it to anyone.

....I don't like abruptly breaking contact with people. I'll keep in touch as long as you do the same. Forgive me for being a ghost. I hope not an ounce of negativity reached anyone from this. A wise friend of mine once told me that imagination is a curse on humanity, that people are always more willing to be living fantasies than live out their lives(they admitted that there were some benefits though). And now I lack balance, that seemingly all important thing to me. I've thought and thought , and I"m not about to write a book about all of this. For now I'm going to have to go with the primitive hate disposition towards Tails until I don't care anymore, unless I can skip the first step.

You can forget all this if you want...in that case I never existed.

[rockmanx204]

O.O I think your over thinking this ^^"

[Foxboy Mick]

You're totally over thinking it. I agree with rockmanx204.

[suddenimpact­]

I figured out what was wrong a long time ago, my mind was self-conflicting because everything had just been sitting separate for a long time and when I began working with intuitive thought, things came together and did not correspond with one-another; reality did not want to make sense at that point...I'm not comfortable talking about this with an audience I hardly know, not because of embarrassment, but because I don't think I can show things clearly enough to everyone.

I can't talk about what my mind is like now, because I would end up over defining it, and it would end up looking very abstract, even though it is actually quite organized. However, I can say that I can now do all sorts of things that most people don't even realize they're capable of .